sometimes being a young woman sucks

As you can tell by this title this is going to be one of those little rants us women go on about. However, mine isn't how expensive tampons are or I forgot to take my birth control, oh no, it is about how I have chosen a type of birth control that has caused me a few sleepless nights.

So long story short, I was on the depo provera birth control shot. I had two shots, which are given every 13 weeks. This is when my weight ballooned to a new level of yuck. So I returned to my doctor and asked what other options do I have. Well, get this, when I first started the depo shot I couldn't get the Mirena IUD placed without insurance. So that was the best that could be offered at the time.

You guessed it, I finally got the Mirena IUD implanted two weeks ago tomorrow. Welp, what was supposed to be a simple procedure went a little wrong. The nurse forgot to give me the medication they use to soften the cervix so the placement is easier. Well, I was already there and I didn't want to put it off for another week. Boy I was wrong. I have been in pain since I left the clinic. Okay, so much of the initial pain was due to the fact the surgery went without proper medication, but now it is just uncomfortable. It makes the inside of my right leg feel like its being torn off. Hence, I felt the need to just write a quick post saying that I have many postings planned, it has just been one of those weeks last week and partly today that I just rather try to get through the daily needs, including my new job, and get to bed.

I will be ringing the clinic tomorrow to have the IUD checked to make sure it is still in the proper place and if not what can be done about it.

With that said, you may now enjoy the rest of the day and thanks for letting me vent my pains of womanhood to you all.

xxxxxx

Preface

I have come across a great many "journal topics" via Kati Morton. I still haven't decided on whether this will be a mixture of things or a personal blog. I don't really want to treat this as a "personal blog" because of the site name I chose. I don't know what I am doing, nor do I know what I want to do right now with this. All I know is that I will be journalling quite a lot within this week.

So for all you beauty lovers out there, there will continue to be beauty blogs posts. Once I feel that this blog has picked up subscribers and I get some input I may create a private blog and use this as beauty, but for right now you will have the pleasure of the rambling readings I will be posting.

Milkmaid Braid hair trial

So as I sat watching Zoella's new video on her how to: milkmaid braid I decided I would give it a go. This is how it turned out.

http://youtu.be/LoYvqeXmWII

Alex G - Bones (Official Music Video)

Me and Panic Attacks Have Become Friends.... Not Good....

It has been two weeks since my first set of panic attacks have returned. I am surrounded by nothing that seems to be triggering or upsetting. The fear sneaks in and not moments later I am in a full blown attack. Where did this come from??? My medication seems to be working to keep me stabalised but if I keep having panic attacks for no reason then what is going on with my brain? I hate it, the massive sobbing, almost being completely inconsolable. I just curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out until my breathing becomes so difficult to the passing out point, I have to either find a way to calm down, like through the app SAM, which is awesome, or my boyfriend has held me until I can calm down enough to breathe normally.

Someone have any insight? Maybe it is all in my head and in my control, or maybe it is a change in hormones since I have come off of my birth-control shot. Hmmmm, I bet you a hundred dollars that my depo shot is the cause. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. I give up.

Pampered night out

http://youtu.be/GXiTVKq1FXM

Plugging it again

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