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Brightness and Darkness

As the storm clouds pass by the sun, once shinning in the mid afternoon, now give way to lighting and rain. Darkness and Light... existing in the same space. We forget that light in any form breaks the darkest of dark. 

Sitting here listening to Alex G's Proof https://youtu.be/0q1rbKUeTMw  and I am quickly reminded that as she sings "still the light shines through the cracks of my heart it's proof that I'm alive."  This very simple sentence speaks volumes that the darkness in my current mind space can no longer stay dark. However, I look around me, rainy dreary day fills my heart with sadness. 

Mental illnesses do this to us. Bipolar for me has left me stable for right now but I feel it all over again. Any rainy day, any sunless moments or days I start to feel that despair. I am quickly taken back to the memories left at the locked unit. Those that visited me have left huge footprints on my heart that I will never be able to thank them enough for the brightness they brought to my darkened world.

Today I am just being reflective as  I watch the rain gently and steadily fall to the ground. More rain we don't necessarily need as we have had a lot this past week. It is in these moments that I feel my heart ache. Not the "normal" ache of "just another dreary day." No my aching is from that despairing feel that one mistake and that darkness can return. I don't want that. That darkness is so unrelenting and holds on so tightly that even the most sunniest of summer days can relax that fearful grip.

I am giving it all away right here right now. As the song continues to state.... " Every dim shade of grey in my scars, all of the mess I have left in the dark, still the light shines through the cracks in my heart, it's proof I'm alive."

                                                          Today I am alive

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Is This A Beauty Blog

I came upon blogger when Xanga shut down. I still do not know what I want this blog to be. I do not know if I want to focus on beauty and fashion or if I rather it be more personal, much like my Xanga blog.

I do know now that when you follow the "trend" your blog or youtube channel flourishes which is quite annoying. How can you promote your own channel when it doesn't follow trends?? How can you reach the people that are stuck in their habits and neglect smaller channels or blogs because they aren't strictly one thing?

We all create our own content but how much of that content is a trend of beauty style for the month, or the top challenges out now??

Being original these days seems to be a trend on if you work outside of the internet world. 

If you aren't smart enough or beautiful enough to have a great blog that has equal content that doesn't always follow the trend how do you maintain that?? 

I want my blog and my YouTube channel to come together as one but here at ceruleansparkles I want to make my content the way I want without being limited to trends. 

There is a x button at the top of every page on the internet and one big red one to close the whole. If you don't like what you see or read, why not comment? Why not consider for just a moment that maybe if there were conversations going content would be created faster with more fluidity that before.

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Branding Words

We see and hear it every day. This person is "ugly" or that person is "slow." Then we hear that next commercial that tells us we are not "smart" enough, that we must do more when we should really stay where we are.

But how do you react, when someone calls you a name, one maybe said out of anger?

Do you snap back?

How about taking the higher road?

What about doing nothing and let it fester under your skin?


It is sad that we are all so quick to label each other and then go on the defense when we are the targeted one.

I don't know what is acceptable these days. I used to snap back but is that really the answer??

Creating an "Emotional Emergency Kit"