Ali Brustofski - Stainless - Acoustic Version (Official Music Video) #ST...

This is her new original song and I love this acoustic version. I wanted to add it to my blog because I have watched her from the beginning and to see how far she has come is amazing. <3

Love With Food Snack Box Special Month

Ipsy September 2015 Glambag

Purpose of My Blog

So many people seem to visit my blog but many probably wonder why it is not focused on one central label.

My blog is about life on life's terms. I write about fashion, then a rant, then a posting of my newest upload to my YouTube channel.  Yes, my blog is crazy and chaotic, but so is life.

I want this to be a blog where people can read something and be like "hey she gets what I am going through," or "dude she is crazy."  Whatever comes from this blog is what I find my mind thinking of and trying to bring creative content.

It is sad that I try to use this blog as a way to make money because my blog isn't a "classic" mainstream blog such as beauty and fashion targeted like I was hoping this blog would be. However, that is not what came of it. I am starting to wonder if I should remove my ads.  The only money that is being made is by the grace of God.  In order to make any money with AdSense is really only to use your blog as a marketing tool to sell your image or products that bring attention to companies that pay for a spot on your blog.

Maybe I am going about this all wrong. Maybe this blog should be transferred to wordpress and try to compete with the other beauty bloggers out there but then I would be cheating people out of other parts of who I am.

I would love to make money blogging and enjoying making videos and other social media content, however, the reality is that I am not creative enough to sell my blog to competitors who are wanting to place their ads on my blog so that I could earn a few dollars typing away in the early hours of the morning (hint: it is only 11:00 p.m. but that is late for me....)

Anyone who may read this and also runs a blog, what are your opinions on this subject? Should I make this a beauty fashion blog only and move all other content to wordpress?? What are your thoughts about AdSense??




Google Adsense disclaimer:  I am not asking for clicks on ads and I am not breaking any guidelines that I can find discussing about my blog in this manner. If you believe this blog post in some way violates the terms of ads please notify me and I will remove this post.

Job Security

I am blessed to have two jobs after spending two years looking for a job, living on next to nothing with the financial support of my mother. It is sad to see those who have finished their bachelors or even masters degree and not find a job in that field.

Even though I am still finishing my degree and I am also not working in my field, I am blessed to have job security and good benefits that come with it. Yes, I have those days that I am like why am I not working as a paralegal or why am I not working in an office with as much experience as I have, but, maybe right now is not the time to have those jobs and the ones I am working now will lead to a much more successful job in the future.

Be grateful all of you that have a job and no matter how much you dread going to work, be thankful that you can support yourself because having to be an adult and still be financially dependent on your parents is to me a huge hit to your self-esteem and even mental health in regards to how you look at yourself and all that you have studied and worked hard for. College/ University is horrifically hard and time consuming and when you don't get that job right after you graduate can really damage how you look at all of your hard work. Don't for one minute think you aren't good enough, think that you are "too" qualified for what you applied for and there are better jobs out there.

It is okay to not find a job right after college/university but don't think you are better than taking that job at the local market or bar. It is a pay check that means financial security and builds your self-esteem by being financially independent again.

I may not be where I want to be career wise but I am beyond grateful for the jobs I do have and the security of knowing that there is money in the bank and bills are paid. Yeah, I do live at home, but my circumstances are not that of a "normal" student job fail. My circumstances allow me to support my mother in maintaining our family home with my aunt in the nursing home leaving my fiancee and myself to help my mother.  Don't get me wrong I pay the bills I can and she carries on what she pays. I am thankful to still live in my family home where I grew up and feel safe and secure. Honestly I couldn't see myself moving any time soon. So, reality for me is that I have an awesome opportunity to take care of my mom and aunt and be financially secure without having to be consumed by shame that I am not working in my field of study. That job will come in its own time.

Just be grateful for today. That job is just around that corner. Don't give up on all the hard work you put in to your education, it will be put to use soon enough.

Good For You

Here is to all of the people I see on Facebook travelling very frequently.... how the hell are you affording this.... I work two jobs and can't get passed Cincy.  I wish I had the money and time to just take off to Norris Lake or Florida or to God knows where. Have fun for me while I continue to work two jobs. #mylifesucks

Freedom! Network and My YouTube Channel

It has been over two and a half months since I was approached by Freedom! to partner with their network. It has been very interesting to see what networks do for small channels. So far I have not really earned any money, actually they took money from my account that was accumulated on my channel prior to partnership. I have gained three... three viewers. The more the time goes and the more I read about Freedom! and those that are partners on the forums, it is sad to see how small channels get offered these "amazing" things from a network that doesn't care about them unless you have over one-hundred thousand viewers. I have fifty-five viewers and very little views on my videos.

 I know I don't have the most expensive camera or the proper lighting but the quality of my videos are rather pretty decent. It is disheartening that small channels are preyed on just so that this network can write themselves another check while my channel sits and festers. Even within Freedom! there are hidden marks. They have forums set up for the community to chat but you cannot talk about your new videos or even your channel unless you have posted some hundred or more forum posts.... which in my case, the forum doesn't even operate at a rate of any other webpage. How can you grow a channel through a network if that network essentially gags you from asking people to simply watch a video or two. Heck, it is seriously wrong to ask for subscribers.

With all that I have learned, through my own research, and that of those in the forums that I have read, joining a network as a small channel was the worst idea I could have ever made with my channel.

I hope that since I have disconnected from Freedom! and DropBackTV hopefully, hopefully, I will have my original simple YouTube partnership and my channel will start to grow more as I stay away from networks who prey on small channels.

What do you think? What are your views on partnering with networks?

August Favourites 2015

How Do You Handle Change?

I was just ranged by my therapist today notifying that Friday would be her last day where I go. How did you handle the change? Do you have to start seeing a new one right away or do you wait? What do you say? I know they will have my charts Togo by but what if they want to know more about something I rather not talk about.

I am left wondering how to start this new adventure in my therapy, not knowing how the change will occur. I'm more horrified that I may have to talk about my s.h. or e.d. two things I am not really apt to talk about. Bipolar disorder isn't that hard to talk about but the other stuff feels too triggering.

What suggestions do you have? Should I relax or should I be this worried? I could use some feedback.

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